Antinatalism In Purgatory

I’m an antinatalist. I think it’s unforgivable to bring new people into this world given that there is suffering. The thing is that lately I’ve been thinking and feeling that people aren’t real. This would partially solve the problem of evil. There is just my suffering and everyone else is a simulation designed to spite me. This should cause me to not feel so antinatalist since the breeders are disgusting alien mockeries of a true human being, namely myself. Yet somehow I still feel very antinatalist. When I see children with their parents I am disgusted at the entire concept. They are probably just facets of the simulation and not souls brimming with the inner light of awareness like myself. And yet they still move me enough to cause disgust. I suppose that was the intention of the designer(s), to create something that appeared so real that it was actually disturbing. Dr. Miller says I have some sort of syndrome after finding out about my solipsism. I think he’s an imbecile who deserves to be burned on a stake. But out of my bodhisattva-like compassion I would instead grant him a consciousness and send him to heaven forever.

Like I’ve said before, it’s plausible to me that this is a punishment. My failure at making friends, then my failure at soccer, then my failure in the stock market, then my failure at university, then my crippling depression. The reason I think it’s a punishment may just be projecting a sense of justice to something that is intrinsically devoid of any anthropomorphic qualities. But it may also be that there really is intelligent design (which I now strongly feel is the case) and the reason this isn’t heaven is because the force behind existence isn’t like me. It’s not the sort of thing that would give heaven to its enemies.

There’s no need to worry that I will have a child due to my new views. It is true that this would be morally neutral as a solipsist. The child is probably not conscious. However the problem is “probably.” This is just a feeling and something I wish to be true. In any case I’m not capable of staying hard for the repeated humping of someone. I guess I could masturbate and ejaculate inside of her. But of course I will never do this due to the guilt I would feel if the kid was conscious and turned out like me, hating life. I am disgusted and disappointed by the continued breeding of humans because a part of me still attributes consciousness to them and this comes from empathy. And that’s all assuming I’m capable of getting a girlfriend. This is not possible so again, no need to worry if your are conscious and care enough about people to be an antinatalist.

13 thoughts on “Antinatalism In Purgatory

  1. Hi Mario, I just came across your YouTube channel today (Kill(ss)ing Asuka) when I randomly searched for “quantum immortality”, and then I found your blog here. I’ve always wanted to meet another solipsist. Based on a few of your videos and blog posts, I feel like you and I have a lot in common. I’m fully aware of the irony of a solipsist wanting to meet another solipsist. Who cares if it’s ironic? I want to have the “experience of meeting another solipsist”. I have had a lot of the same issues and struggles that you describe. Although, to be more precise, I wouldn’t say that I have literally had those issues and struggles, but only at this moment I experience the memory of having had those issues and struggles. I only believe in the present moment of existence. My memories are a “backstory”, like in the TV series _Westworld_. I’m curious how much you and I agree on, and how much we disagree on. What are you thinking about today?

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  2. Hi Mario, I just came across your YouTube channel today (Kill(ss)ing Asuka) when I randomly searched for “quantum immortality”, and then I found your blog here. I’ve always wanted to meet another solipsist. Based on a few of your videos and blog posts, I feel like you and I have a lot in common. I’m fully aware of the irony of a solipsist wanting to meet another solipsist. Who cares if it’s ironic? I want to have the “experience of meeting another solipsist”. I have had a lot of the same issues and struggles that you describe. Although, to be more precise, I wouldn’t say that I have literally had those issues and struggles, but only at this moment I experience the memory of having had those issues and struggles. I only believe in the present moment of existence. My memories are a “backstory”, like in the TV series _Westworld_. I’m curious how much you and I agree on, and how much we disagree on. What are you thinking about today?

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    • I’m thinking that I want to live at most up to 25. I’m also thinking about how long it will take to get my body the way it was before. I’m also thinking about showing the Evangelion and Berserk movies to my nephews when they come over. I’m also thinking the typical about how you are all fake. I’m also thinking about how I will never get a girlfriend. I am also thinking about the mystery of why consciousness is this out of all possible things. I’m also thinking about how long I can go without having a job. And also the usual hatred of natalism.

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      • You don’t have to have a steady “girlfriend,” you can just go out Sarging (it means to go out with the intention of trying to approach chicks). Anyway there is time, especially if you use the Alex Chiu immortality device like myself.

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      • I would never approach a girl. Anyway why do you think this “immortality device” has any credibility whatsoever? And why would you want to extend your lifespan as a disgusting human being?

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      • With regards to your career, I have never worked in my life. I am right now in the business of financial trading. Your previous losses are not important, in fact it could be looked at as a badge of honor. After I was disappointed with stocks in 2015, I reoriented to forex derivatives.

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      • That’s impressive. I doubt I can successfully do that myself however. And if you have never worked how did you get the money for your initial investment? I had to work at Little Caesar’s and raise money from family.

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      • The reason I know the immortality rings work, is that I’ve used them for almost 19 years.
        On the Alex Chiu youtube channel you can see that he is still youthful at age 48.

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  3. Hi Mario, I just came across your YouTube channel today (Kill(ss)ing Asuka) when I randomly searched for “quantum immortality”, and then I found your blog here. I’ve always wanted to meet another solipsist. Based on a few of your videos and blog posts, I feel like you and I have a lot in common. I’m fully aware of the irony of a solipsist wanting to meet another solipsist. Who cares if it’s ironic? I want to have the “experience of meeting another solipsist”. I have had a lot of the same issues and struggles that you describe. Although, to be more precise, I wouldn’t say that I have literally had those issues and struggles, but only at this moment I experience the memory of having had those issues and struggles. I only believe in the present moment of existence. My memories are a “backstory”, like in the TV series _Westworld_. I’m curious how much you and I agree on, and how much we disagree on. What are you thinking about or trying to figure out at present?

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  4. Thank you for replying to me. I would like to speak openly to you, but I don’t want to do that on the public web. Can I e-mail you at the address on your SEELE web site? Or do you have any other non-public mode of communication that you like, such as WhatsApp or Signal?

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      • Buddy, what are you doing up so late? Please don’t die around age 25. You’re a true king. By the way, you -should- get a job. It’s a good way to meet women and make friends. Obviously we’re all suckers to the system at this point, but working to eat and eating to work is harmless living, which is enough. Just do part-time so you got time to read and workout and stuff.

        There is no way for me to convince you that I’m real except by denying that I’m real, obviously real things want to assert their reality. So I’ll say it now: I’m not real. Would an unreal thing say it’s not real? I don’t know how an unreal thing would act or what it’d say because I’m obviously (not) real.

        Anyways, big fan, dude. Legit thought you died because you didn’t update YouTube or this blog for months. Glad to finally be hearing from you again. By the way, don’t give up on science. Science is gay, but for non-retards it should drive them to see God’s hand everywhere. For retards, the opposite effect occurs and they’re completely epistemologically blinded. I obviously consider you a smart guy or I wouldn’t say this.

        Hope to hear from you soon (or not). We’ll see. Love you, bro.

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